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Jazzmine Delgada
I updated my tickers tonight. I realized I keep readjusting them because I'm no longer accomplishing what I want to accomplish. I need to adjust the goals. I'm hoping to be down to 230 by the end of this year with some more movement involved and healthier, more conscious decisions being made about my health.

I have not attended spin again. The first week was the free class. It was great! Totally going again. Next weekend, I was smacked down with a cold that inhibited me from breathing well. Last weekend? I have a blood blister on my lady business, as well as my cycle starting. I am so sore that sitting on an itty bitty bike seat sounded absolutely torturous. I am hoping that by THIS Sunday, my cycle will have stopped and the blister (which was lanced by my GYN, so raw blister skin in the hoo-ha, Jesus) will have healed itself enough that the concept of spin won't make me writhe in pain.

It's an exquisite pain I've been experiencing in the past week. Gah.

Since movement has been restrained, or arduous exercise, I've focused more on food this week and water intake. Made sure to drink my 48oz Nalgene bottle. Been conscious of what I've been eating and when. Listening to my body to see if I really need to eat or if it's just a habit. Am I truly hungry?

I've realized I'm not. While it may be compounded with the menstrual cycle and feeling somewhat bloated and gross, and not really hungry, my food intake appears to be considerably down. I also know that my appetite in general did not seem to recover back from the cold. I spoke with my partner about it; nothing sounds delicious. I don't have this pep to make food plans or get excited about new recipes. Nothing sounds good.

Logically, I also know that the stomach doesn't taste, so that's also comforting.

I have a new client whom has been struggling with weight loss. I shared about food science, and addiction/cravings in general. I know this stuff. I have studied this stuff.
I needed to start implementing it.

So Monday, I purposefully tried to start monitoring food intake and up my water intake. I can already feel the effects of the water: my systems are moving more regularly and I feel less tired during the afternoon.

Coffee with almond milk and splenda
Smoothie at work: frozen banana, frozen strawberries, vanilla protein powder, almond milk
Lunch: Ham and bowties and peas
Snack: Pumpkin whoopie pie
At Home: Cereal in coffee cup with milk

Coffee with almond milk and splenda
Smoothie at work: frozen banana, pumpkin puree, "cinnamon," vanilla, greek yogurt (decidedly Not Good- won't do this again)
Lunch: Salad with zucchini, carrot, spinach, tomato, and homemade Dijon mustard/red wine vinaigrette
Snack: Pumpkin whoopie pie
At Home: Cereal in coffee cup with milk

Coffee (hazelnut!) with 2% milk and splenda
Spinach and bacon souffle and fruit cup (Panera)
Protein bar at work
Powerhouse salad and 1/2 cup chili with cheese (Potbelly's)
Snack: Slice of banana bread with chocolate chips and cup of coffee with milk and splenda
At Home: Pumpkin whoopie pie with cup milk

Thursday was a veritable shit show. I know I drank more water as my goal, but due to finances and food prep lacking, I had a smoothie from Potbelly's, two Whooper Jr's, a small fry, a small coke, and then two chicken wings, a handful of chips, a slice of chicken pizza, and some macaroni salad with a can of Coke. I came home last night a bit defeated.

This morning has been some coffee and a slice of toast with Nutella. I'm going in late today to flex off some time, so I'm hopeful that my mindset will be a little more groovy by the time I get there. I'm trying to get more organized house-wise, and I think that's also affecting my mental health...

... it's always going to be a work in progress.
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Jazzmine Delgada
09 October 2016 @ 01:26 pm
I've lost weight but been sick for several days. I haven't ran because I couldn't breathe. I stayed home from work on Thursday and Friday, and canceled my clients on Saturday. I haven't been out of work for many, many years- I can maybe count the amount of times I've called out of work on one hand during my career.

Naturally, I canceled my spin class this morning because of the breathing issue. I feel like I'm definitely on the mend, but I know I need to be conscious of whatever my body is doing. I've lost weight due to being ill, not having an appetite, and simply forgetting to eat, subsisting off coffee, water, and OJ until I go, "Huh, I really should eat something."

In any case, I'm hopeful I'll continue to make those strides for healthier life...

... every small step adds up eventually.
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Current Music: Football on TV...
Jazzmine Delgada
Another pound down. I've been trying to add small changes into my routine in order to add more movement in general. While I didn't run last week (I legit hate EOM), I did take the stairs up from the metro after buying my bus pass. Those stairs are quite daunting, but I did them! And I didn't pass out!

This morning, I finally ventured into a new spin studio that's been on my radar for about half a year. They do classes piecemeal and offer a Sunday 1000 class, which would perfectly fit into my schedule. After letting my savings build up in that Way2Save account, I finally have enough to buy 10 classes for $70. I went this morning, since the first one was free, to make sure I liked it and what I was getting myself into.

Holy crap, I didn't count on having not gone to spin for probably a year.

But, I made it through! I didn't aggravate my shoulder too much! I also didn't pass out and/or fall off the bike!

I'm totally going to be able to do this now...

... now to post to the community for more accountability.
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Current Music: Cats flouncing through the upstairs...
Jazzmine Delgada
I totally walked that 1.4 miles between jobs that I was planning. I ran twice last week. I even walked during a lunch break for about a mile to get into a CVS, and we did 1.2 miles on Friday walking down to breakfast.

I've spent most of today either watching football or cooking All The Things. I've made zucchini muffins and a chorizo frittata to have some variety to my morning routines. There's fresh cornbread, and rice, and crockpot chili. I'm thinking of making a jarred salad. I know I will sit down with my weekly plan tomorrow to figure out when I can run.

We're going to plan for cleaning for a Halloween party. I'm down one pound this week. There's money stabilizing around us. And there were flowers for our anniversary...

... it's good to be excited about being healthy again.
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Current Music: Partner watching TV...
Jazzmine Delgada
21 September 2016 @ 11:51 pm
Here's an idea. Take the bus in, drop off stuff at work, don sneakers, catch bus, then walk down after meeting. I talked about this with my partner- it's supposed to be mid-70s tomorrow and if I'll be sans three bags, it might actually be kinda nice to walk the 1.5 miles down from my third job's staff meeting to my full-time job.

This train of thought makes me wonder again. It reminds me of late 2013 when I was trying to find ways to incorporate movement into my day. I had already planned to go on a little walk around CVS to pick up cards and other things for our anniversary and his birthday, but now, it totally IS possible to walk the 1.5 miles down from the meeting. At least it'd be downhill, and heading south, it's relatively safe walking through that area of Baltimore.

Huh. Here's hoping I wake up wicked early for the early bus, drop off my stuff, grab sneakers, then head to my meeting...

... I'm really wondering if that's possible.
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Current Music: My partner typing on his laptop...
Jazzmine Delgada
21 September 2016 @ 12:05 am
I have realized I fucking hate working out. I did some research about how I used to do the work-grad school-healthy living thing and realized that, uh, I just kinda did it. I did some planning, looked at my schedule, and penciled in what I could accomplish in the time I had. My old planners are littered with little calendars with nights crossed out. I think it worked, though, because I knew in advance what I could do, and it just needed to be done. And then energy beget more energy; I was never super stoked to go to a gym class. But challenging myself, seeing what my body was capable of, and to hear myself chanting like we did when I was in NJROTC helped to continue me moving forward.

I've highlighted a box three months in the future like I did in another planner. It'll be interesting to see if changes are occurring, the small changes to build up to an overall bigger one.

I've ran several times since my last entry. I continue to not enjoy it. But I have celebrated when I first broke 200 calories in a half hour. Today, I did a mile in 18:53, which is paltry compared to what I used to do, but again, a starting point. I pushed myself tonight, telling myself I could run longer than the refrain of a song.

I ran for two minutes at level 4. I was amazed I could do it. And then my lungs checked me, so I slowed the hell down.

I think the other thing is now that I've accepted I don't enjoy this stuff, it's easier to just DO it and get it over with. Every week, I sit down with a paper with the week on it, put in my commitments, then highlight where I could spend at least 30 minutes on the treadmill. This week, there's two blocks of time highlighted. I finished one tonight.

I've also realized that I can put things on hold and it's alright to put myself first. My father went into the hospital last week, and though I was given an update earlier in the day, I still came home, ran, showered, and then called my mother at 2300 like I said I would. An hour does not make any difference in the grand scheme of things, but that hour allowed me to burn over 200 calories and enjoy a shower, which is excellent self-care.

I've begun to toy around with the idea of spin classes. I think I'm going to do these in October; I've saved up enough money to buy an actual pass, and doing spin every Sunday morning at 1000 might be an excellent routine to get into. Plus, the first class is free, so I really can't argue with that.

It's the little things we used to do that I'm trying to remember how to do in order to do them again. We walked to the library, which we hadn't done in over two years. I've been woggling at night when I get home from work. I'll do a few blocks in the middle of my workday to clear the brain and get some errands done.

Maybe this is the piece of self-care we talk to our clients about, but I haven't implemented. Again, what's an hour in 24? What's an hour really worth when I'm just hazed on the couch waiting for the time to go to bed? What's an hour really worth in a book or in cleaning or in organization? I can surely spend that hour by burning some calories and bathing myself...

... we'll see how long this can progress forward.
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Jazzmine Delgada
I've maintained consistency for the past week, so have lost about two pounds since starting the new job and schedule. I realized I needed to work towards adding back in exercise. When I was in grad school and doing this healthy journey, I would work full-time, go to grad school, and still work out consistently. There are definite issues signing up for another gym pass: First, it would be the money. The biggest thing, however, is the scheduling aspect. While people tote that Planet Fitness is only $10/month, I feel like I don't need a Planet Fitness. I HAVE the treadmill and weights and other workout equipment in my home. The biggest thing I miss is spin class, but with my work schedule, it seems they only offer classes at 0600 (when I'm sleeping) or 1800 (when I'm working). Getting home most nights around 2200 will not allow me to get up consistently for a 0600 class. I did find one studio that would be $70 for 10 classes, which is a good chunk of change but pretty cheap when you break it down per class. Only issue is I would only be able to go to a class on Sunday mornings at 1000. This isn't horrible, though.

I keep thinking back to when I was working and grad schooling and still finding time to work out as well as spend time with my partner. It's like I want to protect Sunday mornings because it is the ONLY morning I'm not doing something; however, I would still go to a class three years ago and be able to come home and spend time with him. It's a still a work in progress. I have a stickie on my September calendar to think about purchasing the $70 pass. I really need to go to gyms to have people yell at me, which is why it worked out great at the other gym, but not having classes in the middle of the day is what is inhibiting me. I also am still scared of my shoulder/slipped disc injury, so I think I need to focus on cardio for right now.

This past Friday, I sat down with a blank calendar and scheduled myself where I knew my time would be blocked. Then I tried to schedule an hour here or there to start implementing some time of fitness back into my life. Despite really not wanting to, I donned my walking clothes and jumped on the treadmill for 35 minutes. I was still able to run! I didn't pass out! And I noticed that while I was doing that, I began having ideas and energy about other things to move around and organize in my home.

Energy begets energy.

I still keep the walking schedule I had made three years ago to document my progress. I realized that the last time I was on the treadmill was 6/24/15. Which is ridiculous that much time has come by. I also looked at old numbers compared to today's. I woggled 1.516 miles in 35 minutes, which burned 220.9 calories. I can see previously that I would burn almost double that when I first started documenting. There's some entries where I woggled for 45 minutes and burned over 700 calories!

I'm hopeful. I feel accomplished already. And maybe this truly is the start of something again. I want to get another session in sometime this week. Maybe those numbers will go down, and maybe I won't be as tired anymore...

... but right now, I'm just going to try for another woggling session this week.
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Current Music: Fan spinning to omg cool me down...
Jazzmine Delgada
24 July 2016 @ 12:19 pm

Earlier this week, I felt as though I was losing weight. I felt a little jiggly. This morning when I weighed myself, I gained three pounds from last week.

Maybe too much queso fundido. Though it was also the first date night we've had in probably over a year.

I just wanted to document that. Not sure what else is going on, health wise. Wanted to give myself until the end of this month to acclimate to the new schedule. Between donuts and more Chick-Fil-A because of a client, I wonder if that's what has set me over...

... or not, but it's all I got.

Jazzmine Delgada
After the last entry, I did do a lot of food prep and preparing meals. I pretty much stayed on track throughout the week: finally fueling myself properly, as well as making sure I had well-balanced snacks so I would not eat a client. I also made sure to significantly up my water intake. It's been working relatively well. I also have been feeling my body becoming more active, between bus riding and walking through the office. I feel like it's slow, but steady progress.

We went out last night and ate crabs, the first time in four years. I'm surprised I actually lost two pounds with the amount of food (namely, s'mores!) I ate last night. I had been seeing 237 throughout the week, but it seems like Saturday eatings tip me over. I moved over two stones into the lost jar. It felt like a small accomplishment.

We decided to walk down to the farmer's market today, the first time we've been able to go in two years. Since the job loss, I felt somewhat depressed about the whole thing, and didn't really want to go somewhere when I couldn't afford to buy anything. My partner actually suggested we start going to the farmer's market as it was part of our routine previously, but also as something for us to do and be together, plus be somewhat active. It was nice to walk down with him, buy too many shallots, and celebrate finding bacon. I missed this part of our routine.

Ongoing, I think Sundays will alternate. Payweeks will go to the farmer's market (even if we only spent $35 between the two of us today), and the alternate weeks, we'll walk down to the library. It's putting something in place so we have something to do that moderately free, but gets us moving and doing something together.

We joked on the way down about where we eventually want to be weight-wise and if we wanted to enter into a contract. He's sitting at 236 right now. His goal is 200. I'd be happy to get to 200, but I know 180 is where I should really sit. However, we joked back and forth about making a contract. He started stating that if he wasn't 200 lbs by the time 7/17/17 rolled around, I could upgrade to a new model. Or we'd have to start assessing our quarterly reports.

I'm hopeful about this "new year," seeing as I'm thinking this new year started on my birthday. With the new job, I feel as though there's some hope on the horizon and we can start making lasting changes...

... I'll be sure to keep on keeping on.
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Current Music: Fidget rummaging for lunch...
Jazzmine Delgada
10 July 2016 @ 11:57 am

Just wanted to drop a note and document this weigh in this morning. I keep seeing between 238-242 during the week, so I wanted a real stopping point.

I'll check in later about plans for this week and what we're doing. I know I plan on doing food prep tonight, so I'll have meals and snacks planned, too...

... just a little at a time.